Glad That U're By My Side

When I see u smile, I will smile too... When u cry, I will cry too.. I wanted to share all my feelings with u.. Happy... Sad... Hatred... Everything of mine I wish u will hear and understand.. U're in my room studying for ur final exam, now I'm sitting bside u watching u study.. Haha u're concentrating with ur study so didnt know I was watching at u and story about u... =P like wat i call u always "STUPID"!!! Everytime u look at me, thr will be a lovely and sweet smile carrying on ur face, look at me & tell me "wat? hehe..." U know how sweet tht is? I cant tell how sweet it is, but deep in my heart it is so sweet... Hmmm... It's almost holiday, u're going back to ur hometown and we cant see each other for 3 months, but since i've decided to buy u ticket and pay visit to me, thn it will be 1 month we cant see each other... It's better than 3 month -.-"!! I guess.. Haha... I wanna tell u something, but not now, even u're bside me but no!!! "wei karen, u're not fat la, so cute leee how come u keep ask me u're fat or wat"... Stuborn girl... Haha..

To: Baby Karen =)
I just hope whn u go back to ur hometown, u will eat apple urself although i'm not by ur side and feed u the apple... lazy pigg... Cover ur blanket everytime u sleep, cos i'm not by ur side so I cant help u to cover ur blanket anymore during the midnight hour... Rmb to drink more water, cos i'm not by ur side scold u and giggling about those matter... Take good care of urself whn u come to visit me, I dun wanna see u get hurt or thin ady... I love u.. =)

The Differences Between Me & You

Planet with life stream and human being living on, people call this place EARTH, which is familiar for me and u.. Wat i'm trying to say is, in our world we have different kind of people eg... Black? White? Yellow? Black for nigga? White for Americans? Yellow for Chinese? hmmm... Thought so.. But I've found something far more interested than tht stupid topic which colour stand for someone.. Fuck tht... This morning whn i go to library, ermmm... I didnt went thr for study, hahahahaha!! I went thr to accompany my dear to study 1 hour b4 the exam begins... B4 we leave the library, one funny scene has appeared... Our library open at 8.30am sharp in the morning, whn the library open everyone rush with full speed into thr, the 1st thought and expression show on my face & in my mind was... "WALAO!!! WTF? ARE THY MAD?" I'm asking this question, LOL!!! For me, my parents support me to go study, thy tell me this b4 i leave "It's time for u to check on the world, go and try live on ur own, b independant & blaaa blaaa blaaa." So i go to study is to experienced the world and get to know more fren and blaa blaaa blaaaa... Of cos i will study but not tht hardcore just like those people I saw in this morning.. My final exam will start on next monday which is November 16!!! Accounting and Additional Maths!! hahaha.. Nthg to worry about, those r only vegetables for me... But seems like someone is worrying about her subject "CIB"? heh... Anyway, I hope she will get high grade and also take good care of urself, dun get sick bcos of those stupid final exam, it's not worth... But I believe that my dear will get excellent result on her final exam.. Good Luck & Wish U guys all the Best!!! =)

Why There Is "IF" Appear...

Today is the toughest day I ever had in 2 semester... Fate? Anyone believe in fate? I always told myself "Fate And Stay"... But tht is not true... Everything in my life is not depends on fate.. Changes occur from many situation and position... Why...? No one can answer me... Bcos I'm the one who screw it up... Nothing can b more important & precious for me now, bcos someone is gone, bcos something has change... I cannot be like wat i use to be, I cannot get wat I really want, I cannot care & love who I really do care & love... Just a misunderstood from message, and this fucking tragedy happen... Wat have I done? No one would ever understand my downcast... Wats the worst thing could happen, damm... The pain is my heart is like piercing by thousand of blades...

If I can know u better... I would have make u mine...
If it wasnt my fault... We can be happy and lovely couple...
If my love came earlier... U wont be sad now...
If I can hold u tights... U wont be gone yesterday...
If there is no "If"... What can it be?

=(

It's All About Own & Being Own

Nowadays ppl always do wat thy think is right, but thy nvr think before thy act.. Those are some serious consequences in the society now.. Even in campus, in my living area, ppl always sarcastic each other, the words tht came out from their mouth is fill with needle and bone. Fuck, wat the fuck is going on, i always ask myself this.. Besides giving out comment, thy do think tht thy knew everything about u, telling u wat to do, order u to do, command u.. WHO THE FUCK DO U THINK U ARE? ok anyway, just wanna draw some attention from the others, let thm know wat thy've done, n be shame on urself.. =)

Time is getting late, the sky is getting dark, n my feeling is getting more down and down.. Wondering wat will be happen on tml, normally i dun think tht way, bcos i'm a lazy person who just like to sit and wait till tml and check tht out.. Being a slovently person like me is good enough, at least I wont like the others tht grow white hair tht fast.. I'm here to tell ppl who watch my blog..

It doesnt matter how hard u try.. At least we try...
It doesnt matter how old r u.. At least u live...
It doesnt matter if thr is no fren around u.. At least i'm still here with u...
It doesnt matter if we died.. At least ppl will rmb us...
It doesnt matter wat i'm telling u here.. At least i knw u care...
It doesnt matter wat ur answer is.. At least i'm hearing...
It doesnt matter if we cry.. At least thr is tears coming out...
It doesnt matter if u screwed up.. At least u're not fucked up!!

My Feelings?

Topic Banned

我的6月30号

今天天气很不错，不会很晒也不会很冷。。其实我真的是一个很普通的男孩啦，但是我不懂为什么我谈恋爱都那么难，不开心我也无所谓啦，就只要我爱的人开心我就可以了。。可是今天她对我说她对以前的男友还有一些爱放不下时，我真的有点不开心。。本来我自己是没有所谓啦，可是她对我说过不到自己那关，我真的没有关系的，因为我相信我可以让你忘记你以前的男友，然后心里面只有我而已，我真的相信的哦，但是就很奇怪为什么两个人在一起要想那么多东西，我爱你，然后你爱我那样，还有什么两句的哦，真的是没什么两句了的。。可是偏偏就不可以的，我真的是不知道啦，我觉得没什么东西的，你说你忘不了他，当然得啦，我也不怪你，因为你们才分了一下嘛，我可以了解可是为什么就觉得很奇怪，有一种感觉给到我好像让我很无聊，很不开心。。我还是第一次feel到这样，以前都不会的，会不会是因为我太爱她了。。我真的是麦古溜哦，很SUCKY的哦，哈哈哈哈！！！我知道我有时很怪，但是我对女朋友因该还好吧，疼你，爱你，你要的什么都可以给到你，男朋友要有的东西的都有吧，hmmm。。。就很不明白为什么啦，可是现在给你时间想想，我又不懂你在想什么，我已经给你意见了，可是你又说过不了自己那关，haixx，我真的可以忍受到，但是偏偏为什么就不听我话，* I WANT TO DARIFY THAT I DIDNT FEEL UPSET, I JUST TRYING TO EXPRESS MY FEELING IN WORDS =D *
宝贝啊，真的不用觉得你自己很自私然后又伤害了我，不要内疚，如果觉得伤害了我，就用那些内疚的时间来爱我，疼我还更好，不要浪费时间在内疚。。懂吗？我会因为你而开心，也会因为你而伤心，疼我=开心，你内疚我也不会好过到哪里去。。哈哈。。你是我，我是你嘛，有什么两句哦。。讲什么林都好啦，到你想到答案了，才好好的告诉我你想怎样，我会一直等你的，看下你的答案和我PREDICT的对不对。。hehe，我向上天祈祷希望健健康康，不要再心痛了，我爱你哦。。Mucks！！！:D

我的唯一色彩，“紫” 色的 “薇” 笑

人的生活是多姿多彩的，我的也一样，但是我一定比你们多一个颜色，那就是我的“紫”色。我爱你，你的“薇”笑，让我觉得我不再孤单。虽然你的脾气很奇怪，你的sms超能力我无法跟的上，因为你那reply的速度真的很GODLIKE，哈哈。。你那可爱的脸孔，像天使般的给我力量去完成很多我所不能的。。还有你的声音，像是我睡觉前的催眠曲。。你的所有，都可以让我觉得你很可爱，很完美。。今天你打电话给我说你知道我以前的一些事情，你用自己去和别人比，我在这里对你说，你比她好。。=）你对我的诚实，让我觉得你很善良，没有想要骗我的感觉。。我知道如果你看到我写的blog，你会骂我因为我明天又commerce maths 061 要考，但是我真的很感动，你对我所付出的。。我的宝贝，你在msn写给我的，谢谢你。。

maybe thr is her in ur heart but i can understand de...
but now just wanted to let u know that i misses u much,
and u are meaning so special for me
and i have fall into u
missing u when didnt heard the beep of the phone...
awaiting the ringtone to ring,
so i can hear ur voice
wanted to webcam with u to see ur smile and the sweet angellic smile from u...
all of u makes me become so happy and feels this world are so pretty and perfect...

你问我说，为什么我会喜欢你。。我对你说：“宝贝，如果我喜欢你是需要理由的话，那我就不是真心喜欢你了。。明白吗？” 爱一个人或喜欢一个人，根本不需要任何的理由，喜欢你因为我想要你和我在一起，爱你因为我想要未来的日子有你陪我过。。在一起不到一个礼拜，我觉得我和你的感情比10年还要深，像是我们上辈子已经遇到过对方那样，我们的默契和幼稚，使得我们对我们的感情更加执著。。你要乖乖哦，我不在你身边的一个月，要好好照顾自己，不然等我见到你时你就知道。。最后我要对你说，我爱你，宝贝。。

我不会放弃的，我相信我可以！！

我昨天晚上去 Miri Thai Bar时，认识到一个女子，我想都想不到她会在那里出现，真的是觉得很开心，因为我有去到，本来是打算要在家吃书的，但是最后还是没有后悔有去。。哈哈哈哈哈！！那个女子很可爱的哦，也很漂亮，不懂怎样讲啦，吊就一个字，美lin那样。。哇佬，一开始时还以为她是那些林C林样那种，但是不是，她超玩得，我喜欢！！不多讲，我懂我很喜欢这个女子，我懂我来Miri那么久，就是在等一个这样的女子，她的名字叫？？？哈哈，不可以讲哦，等我追到了，我一定会好好珍惜你，你要等我哦？？？~~我就算追你１０年，都要追到你。。我不会放弃的，我相信我可以！！现在开始跟你拼过，追到你老～～～

Beach & Gay Club

The Image Above Is Lelouch Lamperouge

Wednesday Midnight Morning 2.30am
Brian, Petrus, Weener, Allan, Pig & Leo
6 Stupid Guy Feel Boring & Go To Beach, Dunno Whr Is Tht, Cos I'm Not Local

• Something Happen At Thr.... So Petrus, Weener, Lelouch look at <------------- Direction

• Oh~~ There Is 3 Gay Taking Photo At Thr, Yucksss~~~ Look At Their Face, WTF?

• They Having Discussion Whether They Wanna Join The Gay Club Or Not -.-"

• At Last They Decided To Join The Gay Club And They Took A Group Photo
• President - Lelouch
• Secretary - Pig & Leo
• Assistant - Petrus, Allan & Weener
  

I Hate This Part Right Here

We're driving slow through the snow on 5th Avenue
And right now radio's all that we can hear
Now we aint talk since we left, it's so over do
It's cold outside but between us...

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Though that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left is good-bye

I hate this part right here~
I hate this part right here~
I just can't take your tears~

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothings wrong
But there is no more time for lies
Cause I see sunset in your eyes!!

I hate this part right here!!!!
I just can't take your tears!!!

Happy B'Day To My 大嫂

Happy B'day to my 大嫂 Kei.Kei, they have been together for 4 years, of cos not married couple, just lovely relationship between each others. It was so so so so much fun during Kei.Kei b'day, actually we're just celebrating Kei.Kei b'day with only 6 people. But, no matter wat u going to organize, as long as u're with ur fren, u will feel good, yet, we're best fren ever. heh. Besides that, we also play with the cake tht brought by my bro Werner, not WEENER ya. HAHA, but i always call him Weener one. During the process of cake smacking, LEO is one of the victim, LOL!!!!! He was fxxking frustrated with his mouth tht full of cream n chocolate cream but seems like he's enjoying, while same goes to me, creamy stuff all around my mouth. Last, Happy B'day n hope they can keep their lovely relationship last.

Hold & Letting Go

我只是一个普通的男子，没有什么东西让我比别人特别，我没有别人那么高，我不比别人帅，我也没有像其他男子那样很有才华，很聪明。可是我还是很喜欢我自己，因为我是我妈妈的孩子，哈哈！ 在我17岁那一年，我从山打根的中学转去kk的中学。那间就是建国中学啦。我和一个女子开始的了一段很搞笑的爱情故事。可能是因为我的关系，我们的开始不是讲很lin浪漫那种款，就在4月1号愚人节那天开始的。开始时我不那么爱这个女子，因为我只是抱着玩玩得心态去和她在一起。但是经过了很多东西后，我发现我越来越爱她。我们在一起的时候后很多开心和不开心的事情发生，最后我们还是会在回一起，那是后我想可能是因为缘分的关系，我和这个女子是分不开的。我们在一起三年了，一直到我们去外地读书时，就分了。如果我没有错的话，因该是距离的关系。开始我很不习惯，因为没有的看到她，但过了一阵子我就开始习惯了。我有一段期间没有打电话给她，可能是因为我在MIRI这里，看到很多美女，又心痒痒的想去追其他女子，但是我心里面还是有她的存在。我也有把她弄给我的手线带在手上，她给我的星星也有，有时会傻傻的看着那些东西，想着和她见面的时候。他妈的，谁懂过了不久我们分手了，我一直很自责，觉得是自己的错，没有理到她。她是在msn那边和我讲分手的，我也就傻傻的说：好咯，我们分手咯，你好好照顾自己哦。才分手不久而已我就看到她和她新男朋友的照片，哇靠！！那时候我真的被吓到一下的哦，因为我以为是我自己没有理到她所以我们才会分手的，哪里懂原来是她已经有了新的男朋友，才会分手的。那时候我知道了一件事情，就是不管以前多么爱你的人，到了有距离的时候，还是会有另外一个新的人在心里面。以前不是我们分不开，是因为我们的生活范围很小，来来去去都拿几条水，几个地方，哪里会有新的感觉~可是在新的地方就不同讲哦，新地方，新的朋友，新的男/女生，confirm是会有一点改变的咯，所以我没有怪她。反而我要谢谢她这3年的照顾，给我的支持，让我变的更坚强。我从不开心的家庭生活到看的开所有东西，都是因为她。。谢谢你哦，是你给我的勇气去爱你，给我勇气去接受新的我所不能改变的家庭，真的是很谢谢你。我也懂“不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有”这句话。我之前还在那边不开心的，为什么会那样，但是现在我明白了，也知道自己不能改变什么，所以我要和你们其他还有远距离恋爱的人说，不要死死被一段感情绑着，没有用的，你也是人，到有一个人对你很好时，样子又不错下的，哈哈，你就知道的咯。记得哦，远水不能救近火哦，别人可以的你不可以哦，但是如果真的是很爱对方可以试下把感情keep着，当作是两个人的考验。就这样啦，bye bye~~